i honestly don't know why i was looking forward to this summer so much. overall, it just has totally sucked. for the most part, i've just been sitting at home, doing absolutely nothing, which is bad b/c it makes me just sit & think about all the messed up shit. i can't take this anymore ugh i just hate it. i dont know what to do!!! i hate myself for totally ruining a friendship b/c of my stupid lies and i hate how i trust & forgive people way too easily, and give myself away to fast. i need help from someone.. ugh i just DONT know what the hell to do w/ my FUCKED UP LIFE anymore!!!!!!!!