ugh i hate this! i just hate love in general b/c in the end..i always end up hurt somehow, someway. right now im just looking back on the past, and i miss it so much. i miss him so much, and i'm not talking about chris. see the truth is..i gave my heart away along time ago, and i never really got all of it back. this person still has my heart, and for whatever reason i cant and wont let go. i know i should, b/c this person was so mean to me, said so much about me, and treated me like shit. but honestly, what cant i just let him go? see, when i went out with chris..i still had a lot of feelings for me ex, and no matter what i did, they wouldnt go away. it was like being with chris made me feel better just to help me not think of my ex boyfriend, even though i still missed him and had sooo many feelings for him. i just wish i could talk to him again, but i'm too scared b/c he hates me, and honestly...i dont even know why. guys= so much drama, and i hate dealing with it. life is just drama filled, and in the years all its done is gotten worse. i just wish it'd get better, and i can forget about him, but i for some reason..i dont want to...

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((A great love? It's when you shed a tear and you still long for him. It's when he ignores you and you still love him. It's when he loves another, and you still smile and say "I'm happy for you" it takes all that to find out u were in love...))