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Monday, July 05, 2004
ugh
i honestly don't know why i was looking forward to this summer so much. overall, it just has totally sucked. for the most part, i've just been sitting at home, doing absolutely nothing, which is bad b/c it makes me just sit & think about all the messed up shit. i can't take this anymore ugh i just hate it. i dont know what to do!!! i hate myself for totally ruining a friendship b/c of my stupid lies and i hate how i trust & forgive people way too easily, and give myself away to fast. i need help from someone.. ugh i just DONT know what the hell to do w/ my FUCKED UP LIFE anymore!!!!!!!!
Posted at 03:27 pm by PiNkx0xLoVe
Friday, June 25, 2004
<333
so chris says he still misses me and loves me.
and i miss him so much..and need him so much!! x0x <33
Posted at 08:58 pm by PiNkx0xLoVe
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
.PuT iT aLL BeHiNd Me * AnD i'LL bE jUsT FiNe.
ugh i hate this! i just hate love in general b/c in the end..i always end up hurt somehow, someway. right now im just looking back on the past, and i miss it so much. i miss him so much, and i'm not talking about chris. see the truth is..i gave my heart away along time ago, and i never really got all of it back. this person still has my heart, and for whatever reason i cant and wont let go. i know i should, b/c this person was so mean to me, said so much about me, and treated me like shit. but honestly, what cant i just let him go? see, when i went out with chris..i still had a lot of feelings for me ex, and no matter what i did, they wouldnt go away. it was like being with chris made me feel better just to help me not think of my ex boyfriend, even though i still missed him and had sooo many feelings for him. i just wish i could talk to him again, but i'm too scared b/c he hates me, and honestly...i dont even know why. guys= so much drama, and i hate dealing with it. life is just drama filled, and in the years all its done is gotten worse. i just wish it'd get better, and i can forget about him, but i for some reason..i dont want to...
»Quňtę«
((A great love? It's when you shed a tear and you still long for him. It's when he ignores you and you still love him. It's when he loves another, and you still smile and say "I'm happy for you" it takes all that to find out u were in love...))
Posted at 04:22 pm by PiNkx0xLoVe
Monday, June 21, 2004
BaCk; a new one to start!
so im back. i got back yesterday but i didnt feel like writing.
heres about my days!~
so on friday we left around 10:30, and got to orlando at around 12:30. we ate at Chilis. my mom and i split this lettuce wrap things--wow it was SO good! i didnt get dessert b/c i wanted to save that for dinner tonight. so we got to the hotel, and we just kinda chilled and did nothing. then at like 6 we had dinner reservations at an italian restaurant called Palios. aww i looked adorable let me tell ya! i had on a white skirt outlined in pink, a pink spaghetti strap, and light pink steve madden heels! aww too cute! yea i did ok in the heels considering the fact i was tripping all over the place! we ate there and it was really good..omg the dessert was honestly what i live for. it was like the best ever. we got done with dinner..then went back to the hotel. we ended up going to city walk and there was SOOO many people there it was crazy!! my mom and i were laughing and making fun of how guys are dogs! they were hitting on me left and right and i got so much attention! so we left at like 11 and got back to the hotel. went to bed..
woke up and had like 19 missed calls and 21 new messages! geeze..lol thats def. a record for me!! we left the hotel at like 11:30 and went to the mall of millenia. it reminded me a lot of international mall (( BeSt mall! )) so we got there and i got panera bread!! <--yummy! then afterwords we went shopping and i got a cute new bathing suit at pac sun. its white--so it'll bring out my tan more! :) so then some like 40 year old guy was stalking me it was so scary. i almost bought a coach wallet but i decided not to. then i got the cutest skirt at forever 21 and bought a shirt to match it at hollister. too bad they didnt have an abercrombie & fitch! so we left at around 4 and got to the hotel. i took a shower and got ready and then we got ready to go out to dinner, but every place in existence was crowded!!so we ended up eating at this restaurant on the boardwalk that wasnt good at all. i ended up just eating mashed potatoes cuz they had to take my dinner! lol then after that we got..iCe CrEaM!! yummy, cookie dough, of course! then we walked around the boardwalk..then back to the hotel! i was on the phone til like 12:30..then went to bed.
on sunday we got up and had breakfast! ahh it was good i ate so much! i had a blueberry muffin, french toast, waffles, a bagel and some more! lol..we left and came home and it took like an hour! we got my dad some food from a steak place since it was father's day..made some rice krispies treats with my mom! then we talked to casey and decided we want to go on another cruise!oh and we are so going on one now! JuLy 10 BaBy!!
~washed my moms car today,layed out,swam,ate,ate,ate..lol fun..
yea im kinda out of it right now..oh well its all good! ttyl <33
Posted at 07:39 pm by PiNkx0xLoVe
Thursday, June 17, 2004
vacation is all i need
well um yea guys are so frikken gay. ok on monday i was at the mall, and for the first time in a week chris called. he asked if i wanted to go meet up at the beach with him on tuesday. so of course i go, and was he there? NOPE! but i went with colleen and we met some people. matt lanni & his friend jeff came and hung out with us for awhile then drove us to colleen's. my mom picked us up at around 5, and when we got home we had to get ready for tony's baseball game. we were late, but oh well. after his game we went out to eat with his friend john at steak n shake. aww i missed tony i havent seen him in forever! then me and colleen came home and ate some more, talked on the phone. chris was online saying how he was sorry he couldnt make it and how he still loves me and wants to work everything out later<<--FAG! ugh..then matt denny called and we talked for awhile..then tony called..then my new friend josh and some kids i met at the beach called. we went to bed around 3, then tony called at 9:30 to wake me up cuz him and john were coming over at like 10:30. they got to my house and we just chilled. we watched the texas chainsaw massacre and it was so scary! especially the end..ahh! then they left and me and colleen didnt do much. then mike and greg came over and we played playstation and ate pizza. then they left, and then at around 11:30 i was on the phone with tony, and i had a beep and it said private call. the girl was like, "hey are u andrea?" and im like, "yea..who are u?" shes like, "this is jamie..did u go out with chris uhrig? " and im like, "yea.." and shes like, " do u still like him? " and im like, "why??" and she paused and shes like, "well i just wanted to let u know chris cheated on u with 2 of his exes about 3 weeks ago?" and im like, "thank u SO much for telling me that!". now i officially HATE guys. chris knew that was the one thing that could totally tear me apart, and he did. FUCK YOU FAGGOT!
so today sucked.boring day.
tomorrow=orlando for vacation time. i really need it.
talk to u on monday!
Posted at 07:11 pm by PiNkx0xLoVe
Sunday, June 13, 2004
* All About Me!~ *
1. Name: Andrea
2. Your age: 15
3. Birthday: December 12, 1988
4. Zodiac sign: sagitarious
5. Eye color: brown
6. Hair color: brown/blonde
7. Hair Length: long
8. Height: 5'5
9. What state do you live in: Florida
10. What town: st.pete
11. Where you born there, if not where: yep
12. If you had been born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name have been: Justin
13. Would you name a child of yours after yourself: no
14. If you would switch names with one of your friend who's would it be: Ashlynn
15. What's one thing about you that makes you unique: like everything on my body cracks lol
16. Nicknames: Ange, Dray, Kwaz
17. Siblings: NoNe! im an only child!
18. Animals: cat
19. Favorite animals: koalas..aww
20. Do you have glasses: to ready far away
21: What piercings or tattoos do you have: ears
22. What school do you go to: spc
23. Do you hve braces: nope
24. Do you have a tan: yep! :)
25. Do you have a b/f or g/f: no..
26. If so what's their name, if not what's ur crush's name: i dont have one
27. Do you play an instument, if so what:/
/28. What grade are u in: soon to be SoPhMoRe baby!
29. What's your parent's names: Ileana & James
30. How easy is it to make you laugh: very easy!
31. What person makes you laugh the most: chris did..
32. What words make you laugh or at least smile: hmm
33: What's the funniest thing you have ever done: gosh way too many
34: What's the funniest thing you have ever said or written: ^^
35: Do you ever dance when no one is looking: all the time!
36: What is the worse song you have ever heard: gosh, too many!
37: What song(s) are constantly in your head: dip it low
38: What song(s) describe your personality best: well right now--burn does
39: When eating something are you more concerned with taste or Nutrition: taste!!
40: Do you ever feel guilty after eating meat: i dont eat meat really
41. What do you love most about the other Gender: that they have a good personality and know how to treat me
42. What do you dislike most about the other sex: how they dont understand that girls have feelings and the world doesnt revolve around them, and their mean, rude, immature...i could go on forever!
43. What do you understand least about the other gender: why they always feel like they have to break girls hearts? </3
44. What holiday do you think still has managed to reatain it's original meaning: christmas
45. Since there is no official holiday what holiday do you think should be in that month: what?
46. What movie(s) make you cry: a walk to remember
47. What has made you laugh so hard you have cried: to much stuff!
48. If could be cloned would you: yep
49. Are you a night owl: yess lol
50. Are you an early bird: heck no!
51. What time of day do you feel your best: night
52. Do you get bored: yep
53. Do you sleep: yess
54. Do you like Christmas: yep! :)
55. Who is Santa: my mommy
56. What comes to mind when you think of water: beach
57. Do you like rain: when im at home
58. Do you think it matters if girls wear makeup: well i dont care..cuz i wear it
59. Do you think woman are from venus and men are from mars: no?
60. Do you like popcorn: yea
61. Can you dance: yep! lol hehe
62. Do you go to church: yea
63. Do you like T.V.: yess
64. Do you wear underwear: yep
65. What do you think about a penny: worthless
66. What would you do with a million Dollars: two words--»SHOPPING SPREE!
67. What's your room like: its all pink..oh, and its def. in a magazine if you wanna see it!!
68. Are you a prep: maybe.. lol..yes i AM!
69. Do you laugh when you hear or read the number 69: nope
70. Do you believe in Ghosts: yea
71. Do you like school: no
72. What's your best subject: does lunch count? lol
73. Do you wear a belt: if it goes with the outfit
74. Can you sing: no lol
75. Do you take showers or baths: showers, but baths are nice
76. Have you ever burned toast: more than once
77. Ever heard the awsome song by bob and tom named toast: def. not..
80. Do you bite your nails: no
81. Do you like cooking: baking
82. Who has had the most influence on you: my mom
83. Do you floss: no
84. Have you ever stayed up ALL night: yep
85. Are you selfish: no
86. Do you like mickey mouse: no
87. Have you ever dyed your hair: highlighted
88. Do you believe in monsters: no
89. Is your room clean right now: yep
90. Do you eat breakfast: nope
91. Are you a caring person: yess i am
92. Are you afraid of the dark: no..lol well..
93. Do you have stuffed animals: yep
94. Ever broke a bone: no
95. Are your friends insane: no
96. Have you ever mooned anyone:nope
97. Have you ever played truth or dare: yea
98. Are you afraid of clowns: YES
99. Did you ever believe in the toothfairy:lol yea!
100. Did you ever believe in the easter bunny: yep
101. What do you think makes a good friend: someone who is trustworthy
102. Do you like Barney: no
103. Can you rub your belly and head at the same time: nope
104. What's the first vacction you went on: wow..i dont remember
105. Have you ever had surgery: no
106. HAve you ever farted in public: def. NOT
107. Do you keep a diary: used to
108. Do you get good grades: yea
109. Do you go tob ed early or late: since its summer--i go late
110. Do you gossip: no
111. Do you talk about ppl behind their backs:nope
112. Have you ever played hard to get: allll the time lol
113. How would you describe your life: confusing.
114. Do you actually know your Social Security number: no
115. What do yoy want to be when you grow up: something that will make me RICH! i wanna be famous lol
116. Do you want kids and how many if so. 2
117. What would you name your kids: Ashlynn and Shea
118. Do you want to get married: yep!
119. What's your dream car: bmw
~*~ Favorites ~*~
120. COLOR: light pink
121. SONG: dip it low, burn
123. Tea : i dont drink tea?
124. ACTOR: ashton kutcher
125. ACTRESS: mary kate &ashley olsen
126. FOOD: pasta
127. BEVERAGE: water, and.. starbucks! ahh yummy!!
128. MOVIE: mean girls, a walk to remember
129. TV SHOW: the OC! i miss it so much!!
130. EACHER: i guess you mean teacher..yea def. would have to be mr. riley
131. SUBJECT: lunch
132. DAY OF THE WEEK: saturday
133. book: do i read? nope
134. place: beach
135. plave to eat: italian places
136. animal: koalas
137. music group: hmm
138. solo/ singer: jessica simpson
139. r&b singer: usher
140. rap singer: hmm
141. pop singer: jessica simpson
142. country singer: shania twain
143. punk singer: dashboard
144. Store: abercrombie, hollister and bebe
145. Possesion: my tiffany's necklace!
146. Cheese: umm?
149. Magazine: cosmogirl and seventeen
150. Season: SuMmEr!*
151. Flower: rose
152. Chocolate bar:snickers
153. Restaurant: lots of places
154. Gum: orbit
155. Snack: candy
156. Candy: skittles, starburst
157. Veggie: carrots
158. Ice cream: COOKIE DOUGH!
159. T.V. channel: mtv
160. Juice: orange
161. Radio stations: 98.7&95.7
162. Cereal: rice krispies
163. Yearly holiday: christmas
164. Fruit: grapes, strawberries
165. Month: july and december
166. Christmas Carol: idk
167. Scent: heavenly~ VC
168. Number: 18
169. Pop: huh?
~*~Which do you prefer?~*~
170. Jeans or sweatpants? both are nice..
180. Sun or moon? sun
190. Gold or silver? silver
191. Math or Science? science
192. English or Social Studies? soical studies
193. Checkered or spotted? spotted
194. Fried or Baked? baked
195 Chicken or Pork? chicken
196. Tight or loose fitting clothes?tight
197. Smooth or rough? smooth
198. Shiny or dull? shiny
199. Bright or dark? bright
200. Silky or satin? silky
201. Blue ink or black ink? black
202. Barbie or Ken? :(
203. Warm or cold? warm
204. Ham or cheese? cheese
205. Salt or Pepper? salt
206. Sunny or cloudy? sunny
207. Raining or Snowing? raining
208. Sweet or sour? sweet
209. Apple or pear? apple
210. Mercades or BMW? both!
211. Motorcycle or Car? car
212. Army or Navy? navy
213. Pool or beach? beach
214. Shoes or Sandles? sandles
215. Short or long nails? long
216. Stripes or plaid? plaid
217. Lemon or Lime? lime
218. T-shirt or Tanktop? tanktop
219. Bike or walk? walk
220. Rollar blade or bike?bike
221. Bitchy and beautiful or nice and ugly? nice and ugly
222. MTV or Vh1? mtv
223. Spanish or French? spanish
224. Bus or train? bus
225. Plane or boat? boat
226. Friend or Family? both
227. Baseball or Basketball? basketball
228. Pen or Pencil? pen
229. Paper or plastic? plastic
230. Original recipe or extra crispy? extra crispy
231. Truck or car? car
232. Dinner or lunch? lunch
233. Italy or France? italy
234. Romance or flirt? romance
235. dog or Cat? cat
236. Kiss or Tongue?both
237. Tall or short? tall
238. Mac or PC? pc
239. Hug or kiss? kiss
240. football or basketball? football
241. Long hair or short? long
242. Ski or snowboard? ski
243. Song or Parody? song
244. Coke or Pepsi? pepsi
245. Pizza or Cheeseburger? pizza
246. New York or Cancun? new york
247. White Chocolate or Redular chocolate? regular
248. Abercrombie or American Eagle? ABERCROMBIE!! :)
249. McDonalds or Burger King? mcdonalds
250. Inside or outside? outside
251. Shoes or no shoes? shoes
Posted at 06:19 pm by PiNkx0xLoVe
international mall.
so yesterday=international mall. i didnt get too much. i got a shirt from bebe and shorts and a shirt from abercrombie. its still all good though. lol i saw joey shank. he talked to me for like 3 seconds cuz he was running somewhere cuz he had to do something for his job. me and my mom ate at the cheesecake factory. it was pretty good. wow omg i got the chocolate godiva cheesecake, and omg it was SO good. it probably made me gain a couple pounds lol. but anyway, my mom and i were talking and we both decided that we both miss chris. i really do miss him a lot.. but what am i supposed to do? there isnt anything i can do. i havent talked to him since last monday, and i know i wont be able to for awhile because hes leaving on like thursday or something for his cruise. oh well.. :(
people seem to find trust in me..why? nooo idea.. but i guess thats a good thing.
and i hope im not leading someone on?
cuz i mean hes my friend and all, but i dont want to lead him on because i dont like him like that.
ahh :(
heather called me last night. we used to be like best friends.
til kristina fisher((now SENIOR )) came along.. w/e
matt lanni and i got into a fight.
i watched cabin fever last night, and let me tell ya thats some freaky stuff!
on friday i leave to go to orlando til monday. seriously, vacation is all i need right now. just time to get my mind off of all the stuff thats happened in these past few months.
Posted at 12:45 pm by PiNkx0xLoVe
Thursday, June 10, 2004
i just don't know..
for whatever reason, i was really looking forward to summer 04. well, turns out, a week in a half into it i get dumped. yea..so much for a great start off to my summer. well, i was thinking, and theres gotta be a reason of why i was looking so forward to this summer. hopefully that means this summer will be great, and i really hope it is, but right now its not looking too good. sweetsummer04 please just get better..
i feel so empty.
i feel like someones torn apart of me out.
i'm just not me.
i'm crying--
sad.
depressed.
not wanting to do the usual things i do.
i just don't know.
wanna hear something weird? well, around 1:00 today, my cell phone rang, and it had an 813 area code. thats the area code from tampa (( where chris lives )) and i picked it up, and i heard like a backround, and the backround sounded like the times i would always talk to chris, and then they just hung up. weird. i'm not getting my hopes up or anything, because all im doing is setting myself up to get hurt... MORE.
Posted at 04:07 pm by PiNkx0xLoVe
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
i wanna hold onto something that won't break away or fall apart..like the pieces of my heart <33
im single.
4/9/04 ~ 6/6/04
...i miss you...
so chris called me at like 10:30.he didn't sound normal, and i could tell something was up. then he told me something terrible that happened, and he said he couldn't handle a girlfriend. i was holding back my tears, but eventually they bursted out and he's like "are u ok?" and i'm like yea i'll be fine, and yea def. a lie. gosh.. i just don't even know. and like that whole day i had this really weird feeling like i was going to be single, and i was getting weird vibes. come to find out that i got dumped. anyway, i cried the whole entire rest of the night, and cried all monday. it was horrible. he called me on monday, and said he'd call me back, and still to this day hasn't. i guess in a way it's kinda good we broke up, but i miss him SO much. i mean, i was and still am confused about a million things. ugh..i just don't know anymore. help me....
Posted at 07:11 pm by PiNkx0xLoVe
Saturday, June 05, 2004
SaTiSfIeD *
last night= baywalk with StEpHiE!
we met up with natalie, ashley, andrea, kyle, brad, patrick, mark, adam, eric, justin, eric c..and some other people..i'm def forgetting some names! oh and i saw mack freaking VoLk! in his pink shirt of course lol..gosh he cracks me up. we saw harry potter -- it was SO long! i also hung out with joe and i saw brett, but he didn't talk to me cuz he was with his g/f. omg and i saw jacob! i havent seen him in forever, and i guess i didn't notice him when i walked by, and when i saw him hes like "i was trying to get ur attention!!" lol..we go waaay back! --> hehe :) .steph and i went to *StArBuCkS* and i got the new strawberries&cream frappachino! soo good!! we walked around..and i saw gut driving by! ahh i ran up to his car and we talked for awhile, he was off to the taste of pinellas at the vinoy. but anyway, baywalk was pretty fun.. def. the funniest thing of the whole day was~
me: ok guys, my moms here!
*patrick walks up to the car*
patrick:thats not your mom! it's some dude with glasses!!!
*mom rolls down window*
*me, steph and mark cracking up*
^^ lol you kinda had to be there! it was sooo funny!!
so today i got my hair re-highlighted. i don't like it. it's too dark now, b/c she added more lowlights, and she didn't add enough blonde in my hair. my mom says if i don't like it we'll go back and get it changed. my mom and i kinda got into a fight today that led with me crying. w/e, we're good now. came home, watched tv, talked to my BaBy!! he won his tournaments!! aww i'm so happy for you baby!~i love you so much! didn't do too much today, at around 8 my mom and i went and drove down the beach and i got cookie dough ice cream --> def what i've been craving forever!
i'm going to a modeling ageny on monday. ahh i'm soo nervous--what if i dont get picked?! ahh wish me luck!!
Posted at 11:23 pm by PiNkx0xLoVe
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